"On Kingdom Assignment; Handling Kingdom Business"

None of us saw COVID-19 coming, let alone staying for more than a year! Since I really cannot speak for everyone, I will talk for myself. COVID-19 caught me entirely off guard, but one thing is for sure: (i) it may have been the cause for the end of a lot of things; and (ii) it also opened the door to a lot of things. The virus itself is nasty, dangerous, and controversial. In retrospect, it caused many benefits in my life (I will explain in the body of the blog). I have taken business, my personal-emotional health, and the time I spent with people, more seriously. One of the significant lessons that I have learned is, I wasted too much time thinking, talking, and NOT doing; rather than DOING, and making the necessary adjustments along the way. Of course, I research, plan, develop, etc.; however, I still have to step out on Faith and PRODUCE what God has placed in me. 

Before COVID-19, I did not value who I was, both personally and spiritually. My business mind, my theological sense, and my ability to just be me. Becoming who I am today started with realizing that I had not confronted circumstances in my life and situations that needed to be addressed to embrace the healing process. Sadly, it took the lockdown and isolation to get me to open up about these issues. Understanding that my need to heal internally would push me to become the person or individual God has commissioned me to be. There was a fire in my belly, a work in my heart, and a profound thirst I had for God I did not have before. 

The pursuit for God was so real; I recognized that there was a degree of confrontation that I did not have in God. I lost my sense of feeling, emotions, self-confidence. The Lord began to show me the areas of my life that I needed to address, confront, and really deal with head-on to start an essential healing process. I dealt with loss, abandonment, and rejection and realized that pride and selfishness inside of me were the cause of the pride and selfishness I had on the inside. 

Here is the start of series of letters and apologies from myself, to myself, and about myself. My Apologia: The Defense of ME!